moments...

So it has been about 2 weeks since he died. Little by little moment by moment I am coping with this. you are with soemone so long and then poof... Tyler and I have known eachother for 7 years. Granted we didn't talk a whole lot in the beginning, but as time went on we started talking and then we hit it off. There is not a day that goes by that I dont think of him. He is and was my best friend. I loved it cause it was the first guy I really liked and one of the best things was my parents really like him. My parents were okay with my choices and it felt good. There are moments when I am smiling and all is well and then at times I see his picture or I am reminded of a memory or his voice pops into my head and I cry. I always thought he and I would always be together. Nothing could ever seperate us. I felt like I had was always there for him when he needed me and when he was in the accident I felt so hopeless. I felt like he could be crying and scared and I am not there. At that moment I wish I could fly or something. Tyler and I were ever rarley apart and not being able to be with him that night was so hard. I prayed alot that night asking Heavenly Father why did this happen we were suppose to be together. Heavenly Father told me Hannah he was not ment ot pick you up. I need his help and it was time for him to go. You wernt suppose to be in the car your mission is far from over. Tyler needs to you to finish down here and he will come with me and be your gaurdian angel. I have never felt as much peace and comfort and heartache all at the same time as much as I did that night. it is just so crazy what can happen in a moment...